I’m Not Gonna Find A Way.

This image is what you make of it.

To me I see myself drowning but I throw my hand up saying “God I’m drowning!” Please save my spirit because I know I’m going to die. God please be ready to take my spirit to heaven as I am about to die.

Your hand and your arm are significant. You use them all the time. But one thing that is important to see, if you were in this situation, you have nothing. Your arm and hand are only significant here for two things. One, praising God, and also asking him to save you where you are.

I imagine my head in the dunked under the water, not being able to breathe. My last breath would already be gone. I’d be praying in my mind because screaming would be totally insignificant.

I feel like this in my life right now, like God… I got nothing, I have nothing. So take my spirit. I surrender my hand to you. God’s hand is significant as his spirit grabs my hand.

I felt empty last night as I fell into my addiction. I was praying to God asking for forgiveness. All a sudden I heard a stern but gentle voice say this. Keep in mind that this can’t be me because I felt lost and depressed but I hear what I believe was God. He said, Jacob… If all was stripped away from you, home, money, every single thing you have… where would you be right now? I said out of all honestly I’d be starving in…