Stuck Losing, Figuring Out Life At 22.

I have something in me I know it. I just don’t know how to express this joy because I’m also overwhelmed.

I feel alive but I also feel dead.

It’s a strong feeling that I can change my whole entire life but by one small thing I can destroy it.

Iv’e been having this thought lately that’s not quite a thought but a video playing in my mind. And to give the best examples here,: A construction crew can build this amazing structure. They pour a ton of time & energy into this one building & project right? But it takes less time to have a bulldozer break it all down.

Here’s a couple much better examples.

It’s like someone right now, at this very minute is driving a car & with one wrong, or accidental turn of the wheel next to another car can change your’s or their entire life. And with 8 billion people in this world it’s definitely happening every single minute.

It’s like a mother that is giving birth to a new child that all of a sudden can’t live. All that time, all that love, all that hope and excitement, that commitment, all of the finances set in place to take care of your child. It all doesn’t suddenly matter.

These may seem strange and random, and negative. But I’m trying to put this imagination in your mind… So many amazing…